My first project in the class “Sculpture”.
The teacher asked us to build anything that came up in our mind when hearing the word “Cirkus”. The material that we were alowed to use was steal.
I build this elephant from only one steal thread, inspired by Picasso’s drawings of animals only using one line.
Our final assignment in the class Photography was a typology. we were asked to chose a motive and photograph 6-30 pictures of the same motive but different places.
What do you think?
In one week I got the answer from the University in Oslo (my dream university) and the college in Israel (my plan B, in case I didn’t get accepted in Oslo). And the answer were that I didn’t get accepted in Oslo, but in Israel. For the next weeks I spent the time thinking about pro’s and con’s, to stay or to leave. But in the end I took the chance to move to another country. After all, I did have family there and knew the culture . I got accepted at a college in Israel, studying Interior architecture.
My first project was in Photography. Both for the teacher to see our abilities in photography and for the students to get to know each other we were asked to photograph one photo that described us in a traditional way, and one in a personal way.
Here is my photos: 
What do you think?
The time had come for me to application for being accepted at universities.
My dream has always been to go to the Art University in my town. My Grandfather was a professor there, and it is also the only Art university in my town.
Assignment 1: Draw a technical drawing of a bicycle
Assignment 2: Draw a situation of a space, that includes people, that
1) stresses you out, and 2) calms you down.
Assignment 3: design and build a bridge
“I don’t want no future (want your future)
I don’t need no past (need your past)
One bright moment (one bright moment)
Is all I ask (all I ask)
I’m gonna leave my body (moving up to higher ground)
I’m gonna lose my mind (history keeps pulling me down)
Said I’m gonna leave my body (moving up to higher ground)
I’m gonna lose my, lose my mind (history keeps pulling me, pulling me down)
– Florence and the machine
No one saves us but ourselves.
No one can and no one may.
We ourselves must walk the path.
-Buddha
“Sam: Why do I and everyone I love pick people who treat us like we’re nothing?
Charlie: We accept the love we think we deserve”
– The perks of being a wallflower
“If you can’t fly
then run,
If you can’t run
then walk,
If you can’t walk
the crawl,
But whatever you do
you have to keep
moving forward”
– unknown
The stars are falling out
My dreams are fading now, fading out
I’ve been keeping my eyes wide open
I’ve been keeping my eyes wide open
Your love is a symphony
All around me
Running through me
Your love is a melody
Underneath me
Running to me
Your love is a song”
“I used to dream my-self to somewhere else each night,
I dreamed in colour ’cause I lived in black and white”
– Katie Melua
“In every winter’s heart
lies a quivering spring,
and behind the veil of each night
waits a smiling dawn.”
~ Kahlil Gibran
After the storm.
If you let yourself go deep.
To feel.
To seek.
You will find something special.
Something that will even shock you.
You will learn new things.
See the world a bit different maybe.
What you will find was not there before the storm,
or maybe it was.
But the storm needed to appear for you to see it.
See that something special.
I miss you most of all when autumn leaves starts to fall
A.J. Jutrem 2.8.1929 – 15.9.2005
A friend asked me if i could draw a cover for his single “Birth of a Criminal” . He liked the idea of he drawing I made called “Pain; give yourself a name – Switchfoot” (https://truthconquers.wordpress.com/2012/04/02/pain-give-yourself-a-name-switchfoot/). He wanted his cover to be in that style; to show that people has a missing piece, a piece they don’t understand .
!!חג שמח ושנה טובה
Happy 5774, Hope your year will be sweet and full of joy!
There is always that someone that’s ment to stand out.
I decided that it wouldn’t be that bad if I took an additional year at school, even when I was ready for university. Yes, I would stand out, in a bad way, staying at school one year older than the rest. But I decided that it was the right thing to do. No matter what people would think. I had made a decision, and I would stand by it!
The summer of 2012 has started. My friends and I have ended 13 years of school, and everyone is disappearing in another direction. One in the marine. One in Paris. One studying to be a lawyer.
But I. I was nowhere. Since I was sick two years ago, I had to drop out of two subjects. By doing that, I could manage to complete second and third (last) year at high school. But as the third year ended, I knew I still had to take an additional year, to complete.
It felt like i was standing alone, all my friends disappearing living their lives, and the big queen is staring at me yelling: “So, what will you do?! Will you start the life of a student, living the life you have dreamed of and be at the same level as all your friends? Or will you complete your education, so you wont be a dummy the rest of your life?! Come on! Choose! Now!”
The queen pushing me in to a corner, leaves me with no way out, no excuse, yelling: “CHECKMATE!”
“Your love is a symphony,
all around me,
running through me,
Your love is a melody,
underneath me,
running to me,
Your love is a song”
This is my story. My journey
As you read it, let it embrace you. Take in every word. Read between the lines. Find the hidden message.
If you know my story, you know exactly what my drawings means. In one glance you can see one story, but if you know me, if you read the headline and what I’ve written, the drawing will get a whole new meaning for you.
I write about my journey. How I ended up in a wheelchair. How I managed to get out from it. How I one year later stood on the stage of my school musical. Dancing. Singing. How I lost friends. made new ones. How I got my first job. How I managed to move out, get independent. How I moved to another country, alone. How life with CFS/ME is.
This is me. My story. My journey.
“cold in a summer breeze
yeah, you’re shivering
on your bended knee
still, when you’re heart is sore
and the heavens pour
like a willow bending with the storm, you’ll make it
running against the wind
playing the cards you get
something is bound to give
there’s hope for the hopeless”
-A fine Frenzy
“I came here to talk
I think you should know
That green eyes, you’re the one that I wanted to find
And anyone who, tried to deny you, must be out of their mind”
– Coldplay
“I’ve lost myself or most of me, but you haven’t lost me yet” – Switchfoot
It’s funny how someone who was just a stranger last year, can mean so much to you now.
It’s terrible that someone who who meant so much to you last year, can be just a stranger now.
It’s Amazing what a year can do.
“Take a look at yourself in the mirror, who do you see looking back? Is it the person you wanna be? Or is there someone else you were meant to be? The person you should have been, but fell short of. Is someone telling you you can’t, or you wont? Because you can. Believe that love is out there. Believe that dreams come true every day, because they do. Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money, or fame, or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family, and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life. Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do. Believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do. So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be. Believe that. And believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do.” – OTH
“The world lies in the hands of those who have the courage to dream and who take the risk of living out their dreams – each according to his or her own talent.”
“I have grown too strong to ever fall back in your arms”
“Sometimes you have to forget what you feel to remember what you deserve.”
“See that rock that you hold onto
Is it gonna save you
when the earth begins to crumble?
Why’d you feel you have to hold on
Imagine if you let go”
– Katie Melua
“May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground. Carry on” – FUN
” There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.” – OTH
“It’s the oldest story in the world. One day you’re 17 and planning for someday. And then quietly and without you ever really noticing, someday is today. And then someday is yesterday. And this is your life.
We spend so much time wanting, pursuing, wishing. But ambition is good. Chasing things with integrity is good. Dreaming…
If you had a friend you knew you’d never see again, what would you say? If you could do one last thing for someone you love, what would it be? Say it, do it, don’t wait. Nothing lasts forever.
Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want. Everything you want.
Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true.
You never know where the next miracle’s gonna come from. The next memory. The next smile. The next wish come true.
But if you believe that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it. To the certainty of it.
You might just get the thing you’re wishing for.
The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it.
So make your wish… Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart.” – OTH
“Saying yes to happiness means learning to say no to things and people who stress you out.” – Thema Davis
“Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If one life can really make an impact on the world? Or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives… for better or worse!” – OTH
“Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.”
– W.H.Auden
Exam in Visual arts: Illustrate the poem “Under natt-treet” by Hans Børli. You have to use three different techniques. Criteria: understanding the meaning behind the poem, illustrating the main theme, use of technique, composition, use of color.
The techniques I used was indian ink, watercolor/aquarelle and pencil.
Exam in Design &Architecture: Design a furniture which will be used only outside and for rest. You are designing it for IKEA. Criteria: the materials you use has to be weather resistant, use of right ergonometric measures, it has to fit IKEAs style. Draw the product in perspective, and with every measures.
Design & Architecture: Design a module of a bench. Deliver the project in a folder that contains an inspiration map, four different concepts of a module that can make 3 different combinations, a drawing of the module in a fitting environment and a drawing of the module from every side with every measure. The module has to be placed outside in a park, therefore the chosen materials has to handle rough weather. The age group for the product is children.
The next project in Scenography & Costume was to design a costume to the chosen play.
I chose to design a dress for the lead character, Christine Dae.
The fabric I used was chiffon, and i formed the dress by sewing it to chicken wire. The skirt is orange and the dress is red. I chose these colors to give the effect of energetic, bald, passionate, fire, and will therefore fit perfect to be worn in the scene where they perform the Phantoms own opera. The fabric I used is so elegant, soft, careful, so I decided to make some flowers of paper that I painted orange to get a contrast between the soft and the harsh.
I designed the dress and sew the dress all by my self 🙂 What do you think?
Visual Arts: Chose a painting from the baroque. Abstract it. You can use both organic and geometric shapes. The painting has to be in acrylic painting.
Criteria: Use of color, technique, contrast, composition.
The size of the painting is 50 x 60.
One thing my ex-boyfriend and I did, was to watch series together. After the break up I felt that it was the only thing I had left from him.
There was one special song from one of the series’ soundtrack that stood out: 3 Rounds and a Sound by Blind Pilot.
This song comforted me and was kind of an escape for me when I started to think of him. I feel that the lyrics fits so good to what I felt.
This song is about the end of something. Its’ about someone who is letting someone go, someone who knows them. They are changing, but they wont forget about this other person. They still care about each other but they have to let each other go, because what happened between them is over. It’s about acceptance, remorse, and accepting that they won’t get over each other soon.
Of our song
I hope they get it right
I hope we dance tonight
Before we get it wrong
And the seasons
Will change us new
Be the best I’ve known
And you know me
I could not be stuck on you
If it were true
I was sleeping
My eyes were dark
Til you woke me
And told me that opening
Is just the start
It was…
Now I see you, til kingdom come
You’re the one I want
To see me
For all the stupid shit I’ve done
Soil and six feet under
Killed just like we were
Before you knew you’d know me
And you know me
Blooming up from the ground
Three rounds and a sound
Like whispering you know me
You know me
So this was our song
This was our song
I still see the lights
I can see them
And the criss cross
Of what is true
Won’t get to us
Cause you know me
I could not give up on you
And the fog of what is right
Won’t cover us
Cause you know me
I could not give up a fight
Soil and six feet under
Killed just like we were
Before you knew you’d know me
And you know me
Blooming up from the ground
Three rounds and a sound
Like whispering you know me
You know me
It´s 10.04.12. My boyfriend and I have been together for two months now. And I was happy. I was so thankful for having him, being with him. He was my everything.
Later that day, someone knocked at the door. And from that moment, my life started to fall apart.
It came out from nowhere. It didn’t make sense. But when he finished talking, he left, and it was over.
My eyes were all teared up. I was confused. It was so many things that I didn’t understand. I had so many questions. But there was one thing that was on my mind all the time. And that was a song by a musician we both loved. And it’s called: “My love goes free” by John Foreman.
We got a new project in Design & Architecture: Design a lamp and make a model of the final product. The main material you can use is paper. You deliver the project in a folder that has to contain an inspiration map, 20 sketches, a drawing of the lamp in a fitting environment and a drawing of the lamp from every side with every measure.
The material I used was greaseproof paper. I used a racket and took away the strings and the handle so I only got the oval shape and attached the paper to it. I cut out the letters of the greaseproof paper that made the quote: Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise. I also took a yellow paper and rolled it to a circle and placed it inside the lamp. By that, the light will be yellow and will shine through the letters and give a relaxing and comfortable light.
What do you think?
A project in Visual arts: Choose a country. Paint the typical motives for that country in a pallet from the 50’s. The motives have to be abstracted.
Criteria: Use of right color, technique, composition and is it abstracted.
What do you think? Do you see which country I chose.?
It’s January now. January 2012. The school musical has now become my life. Its the only thing look forward too, and it seems that other actors are the only ones that understand me. As I wrote in the post ” “You pull me out of the dark and now it’s light” – Slow Club” the school musical was now my anchor point.
February 2012.
One of the actors stood out. He saw me. He cared extra. He wanted to help me. Save me. Be there for me, always.
He became my best friend, and I could talk with him about anything. When I needed help, he was there for me. I didn’t feel alone anymore, ’cause I had him. my guiding light, my anchor point.
I never thought that it was possible. I couldn’t believe it. But it was a fact. He was falling in love with me. And I fell in love with him.
And here is the results:
Scenography & costume: Chose a known play, and make a modern twist to it. The stage is a circle formed stage, that can turn to the left or right and the scene room will change. We could only make three scene rooms.
I chose “The phantom of the opera”. The scene rooms that I chose to use is (from the top) the entry hall (where the masquerade scene is), the opera stage and the phantoms “cave”.
I got inspired from the opera in Sydney, and designed the fence on the balcony, that is on the top of the stairs, like the opera. the fence is made of glass, as well as the stairs. The stairs are held up by wires .
To “divide” the stage, i chose to use transparent fabric in different width in yellow and in black.
After we designed the information desk we made a prototype. By that we learned all the lines we have to draw on the drawing to understand how to build it. A very nice experience 🙂
Our first autumn exam in Design & Architecture was to design an information desk for the Norwegian Tourist Association. Therefore we had to use typical norwegian materials, but at the same time give the desk a modern look. We had to draw the information-desk in a two point perspective and a drawing from every side with every measure. The criteria were creativity, functionality, proportions, perspective and technical design. We got 5 hours.
I decided to use wooden planks in the front inspired from the norwegian fence called “Skigard”.
I used the typical norwegian stone called slate as a tabletop where the worker can stand and help people, and blue plexieglas with a glass-fence where they can sit and work in private.
What do you think?
Our second project in Scenography & Costume: make an informative “poster” of the 60’s and the 70’s. with one glance at the “poster” you have to know immediately the interior, use of materials, and clothing.
We were supposed to work in pairs for this project. My partner ad I decided that since she’s in to fashion her job was to find out the typical features in the 60’s and 70’s clothing, and draw them. And since I am interested in interior I found pictures of furnitures, typical materials and use of color from the eras and arranged in to two rooms.
The 60’s: The room on the top and the woman to the right
The 70’s: The bottom room and the woman to the left
My first project in Scenography & costume: Make a mask inspired from an insect. The criteria: The ability to develop your own work from the given assignment, documentation of the process, content/ expression, creativity and technical use.
Before we each handed in our mask, we painted our faces in a color that would fit the mask and put on a costume that will give an overall expression.
Spending more and more time with the school musical just gave me so much joy and strength. And suddenly one day i realized the musical group was my anchor point. And slowly the joy and the unity in the musical group dragged me out of the dark.
Then we got a project in Visual arts: Make an illustration of your literary topic. The criteria were the idea, composition, use of color, volume, drawing/shading, creativity and all in al impression in technique. The techniques we could use was first of all drawing and then we could use some painting and collage.
My literary topic was female crime writers. First I chose Camilla Läckberg, then I chose a scene from four of her books (from down right: The gallows birds, The hidden child, The stone cutter and The drowning). Since the theme was crime, I could use more red on the maps, but I decided to use blue to let it be kind of flowing and mysterious.
(The gallows bird)
(The hidden child)
“Sometimes pain becomes such huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there because you can’t remember a time in your life when it wasn’t. But then one day you feel something else. Something that feels wrong, only because it’s so unfamiliar. And in that moment you realize you’re happy.” – OTH
When I started my third year of high school I decided that this year would be different. Since I spent 7 months in a wheel chair last year, I thought to myself that I wanted to have a better year, and that I could remember high school as something positive.
So when I read that the school would set up a musical, I thought, why not. Last year I wouldn’t even think about going to an audition. But this year I thought “Why not. I have nothing to lose. And it would be a fun experience to go to the audition”. So I went. And you know what? They picked me as one of the actors!! I believe that on that point my life changed. By joining the musical I learned a lot, and a lot about my selves. I learned that I actually can be good at something. That people appreciate me and what i do. I had, and still have, a hard time accepting that, and also myself. But I’m learning. And this is the beginning of my new life.
We had a project in Design & Architecture where we had to design a reflective product for children/youth. The criteria were the idea, design-process, a justification of materials in the final product, right dimensions related to the target group and how the products is user-friendly.
Since the usual color for a reflex is yellow, I decided that the rest of the headset would be purple, so they would be in complementary colors.
Our first project in Visual arts was to make a collage of a worldwide news by using three different techniques. I chose the 22.07 terror attack that happened in Oslo summer of 2011. I wanted to make it like a memorial work. In the picture there is 77 roses, a rose for each person that got killed. And I chose to draw and paint hands that shows different cultures managing to live together. The techniques I used was acrylic painting, pencil and paper collage.
I didn’t manage to scan the whole picture, therefore the top is cropped 😛
Then the summer vacation was over and it was now time for starting my third year at Art school.
Our first project was in Design and architecture. We were refreshing our skills in drawing perspective. So the first project was to draw an house in two-point perspective. Here you see the drawing with all the helping lines that “builds up” the house and the finished result. What do you think?
Finding the joy in the small things is something that I enjoy. Sitting on a roof on a hot summer day, with a lump of clay between my hands, feeling how it shapes, is an example. Is liberating, and can maybe even feel like meditating. So relaxing, fun and exiting at the same time.
This is two projects I have had in Visual arts last year. The first one is an exam.
(Since they are in size A3 I had to scan half of the picture at the time )
Do you have my missing pice, that something that can fill the emptiness I feel inside?
She dreams about heaven, remembering hell as nightmare she visits and knows all too well
Tell me when you hear me falling. There’s a possibility that I woldn’t know
No drowning man can know which drop of water his last breath did stop..
The summer-vacation in 2011.
I can admit that I was nervous. For the first time after I got out of the wheel chair, I left for another country. But I was prepared. I planed the days so I wouldn’t get exhausted, I left the room when it was too much noise, I slept or rested in the middle of the day and most important of all; I focused on doing things that make me happy. For example, when my family decided one day to go to the beach, I took with me my camera and photographed every thing that fascinated me. Here are some of the shots :
Forget me not 
